Why Can't I Love you?? Why don't you want me?

Do you ever have that friend that is perfect, but you don't want to yadda yadda?

They make you laugh so hard you want to piss yourself, You can say anything to them and they will never judge you. You could hang out with them anytime and never get tired of them. They also happen to be a member of the opposite sex, and for some reason you just don't find yourself sexually attracted to them at all. This sucks balls!! I think also, because, I think I'm one of those people, to a great many men. I'm that girl you're too comfortable around to want to put your penis in. Or, or!! worse, you can put it in me, but, then you still just want to be buddies. Girls don't do this really, if you're my bud, you're just my buddy. If, I want to bone you? I'm hoping for more...at first. Then, at some point I kill off my emotions, giving up hope that you'll ever like me "like that".

Anywho, I have some guy friends that are way too awesome, and I just couldn't. Like, perhaps it's because of the fact that they are so awesome, and kind, and fucking funny. I wouldn't want to ruin that. I wouldn't want to take that away. I don't know? What I do know is, the lady that does end up with any of these guys, better be the most amazing girl in the world. The honest truth is, I'm the only girl that's good enough. But, I just couldn't go there. I couldn't ruin what I have with them. So, Unless they are as great as me...I'm kidding, but, I will kill for these guys. I just wish I could find someone half as great, but, I was still attracted, and they were still attracted to me, and also, Not my best friend. I gotta move past that little hump. (The one person I'm in love with, the one friend I would bend over a stove, I just shouldn't go out with ever...Because, he is an asshole, and I know this about him, and yet, I don't care. He's not an asshole to me, just all the women he dates. It's better to be his best friend, and not his girlfriend. He would only cheat on me and break my heart. You can't tell your heart how to feel. because, then I would tell my heart she's an asshole!!)