I think Braylon must be the most dense boy in the world to not know about how I feel for him. We've lived together for almost three years now, and everyday it's just harder and harder. He's been seeing this girl. He really likes her. She's beautiful and nice, nothing's wrong with her besides the fact that she's not me. I just want him to be happy if he's not going to like me like that. But, they fight all the time, and she's always breaking his heart. While I know he's broken his fair share of hearts, he doesn't deserve to be manipulated like this. I don't think she's doing it to be cruel, I just think, Like so many of us, she's a little damaged from previous relationships.

Anywho, His sister came into town the other day. I had never met her before, and she didn't like his girlfriend, but, fell in love with me. Kept saying things like, I should marry her brother. Which is funny, Because, I think the same thing. So does the little girl I watch. But, you can't make someone like you that doesn't feel the same way. It's just hard because, I don't know how much longer I can keep this a secret. It's hard to just be friends with someone you deeply love.